Hahaha...tajuk jer pun dah buat aku senyum-senyum kambing.
Masa waktu sekolah dulu, aku terminat dekat seorang mamat "diskang" yang tak pernah sikitpun jeling kat aku. Tapi aku suka cara dia dressing, cara dia berjalan, style dia dan dia tak termasuk dalam kategori handsome langsung. Mamat ni hanya sekelas dengan aku masa subjek English. So,suddenly English has become my favourite subject because of the lil crush that I had.
Bila masuk Uni, aku pun ada a few "crushes" jugak. Aku pernah terminat kat mamat yang paling mysterious dalam batch aku, but he turned out fell for my best friend and after that coupled with one of the prettiest girl in our faculty. I also had a crush on the most prominent student leader in the campus and he also turned out fell for my other best friend who is extremely pretty and popular among guys.
So, basically semua orang yang aku minat tu, tak pernah sedar pun kewujudan aku kat muka bumi ni. Hehehe. But, that is what you called crush, a temporary infatuation and the other side should not know about it. Because if he knows that you had a crush on him, you'll be like DEAD man!! MALU BESAR ok!
And, I thought all those "crush" thing only happened to teenagers. Little did I know, it can happen again to me now, at this age of "over" maturity. Hehehe.
I met this young lecturer at a meeting where he was the chairman. At that time, I was so impressed with his English accent. Bila dia bercakap English tu, macam wow giler tapi bila cakap melayu, bunyi kelantan habis. Hahaha!! Tapi masa tu tak ada rasa apapun until I met him again, at a course in Langkawi. We were representing our Uni together with two other lecturers and two officers.
Masa kat sana lah, we started to really know each other. Dia memang bijak, extremely smart kot and very very funny. Selain waktu-waktu yang kitaorang spent at the training sessions, kitaorang jugak spent masa sama-sama leisurely, pergi shopping, makan and so on. He was very funny and he thought that I was funny. He liked teasing me and he liked it when I argued with him. Masa tu, aku rasa macam ada "something going on" between us. Aku rasa lah...sebab aku rasa happy bila nampak dia dan dia pun nampak happy bila nampak aku..... hahaha!!
But on the last day, before we parted, he had said to me, "whatever happened in Langkawi stays in Langkawi". It was kind of a reminder that a simple infatuation that we had shouldn't be taken seriously. It took me some times juga untuk lupakan apa yang berlaku di Langkawi. Luckily, kami jarang terserempak lagi selepas tu. Ada lah kot 2 kali I bumped into him, and we had talked casually and every time my heart still beating hard though... [sigh]
Now, at my new office, there was a young officer yang cute sangat. Aku dah pernah selalu nampak dia pun sebelum ni tapi kitaorang tak pernah kerja in the same place. Somehow or rather, aku rasa dia sangat segan dengan aku. I don't know why. He avoided meeting my eyes every time I accidentally looked at him. He don't even smile at me. Dia memang mengelak dari terserempak dengan aku. I can feel that. And aku macam like, weiii, kenapa kau segan dengan aku ni??
Tapi satu hari, aku nak masuk bilik aku, and tak sengaja I caught his eyes and he smiled at me. A little small tiny smile. I was stunned...returned his smile, and quickly rushed back to my safe office for my eyes, my ears, my heart and my whole body were smiling too...... [pitam]
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